anxiety

I'm one who has always struggled with anxiety. Anxiety used to paralyze me. Often I would go weeks on end without any sleep, worrying all night long. I'd find my stomach to constantly be in knots and as a result was often miserable. Since putting my faith in Christ, it has gotten a lot better but every so often something huge comes around and I find myself worrying about details. My thinking reverts back to the days when I believed that I was actually in control of everything.

This week in particular with all that is now on my plate as I prepare to head to Indiana in Sept, I've had to constantly detour my worrying frame of mind to focus on the faithfulness of God. After all that God has done for me in my life, the way He has proven His faithfulness time and time again, I should have no reason to struggle so much with worrying. But somehow those anxious thoughts manage to creep in.

So here I find myself yet again making war with my own unbelief or as John Piper would say "Fighting for Faith in future grace." AAAAA!!! Am I ever going to have enough faith in Him to give up all this worrying? It's such a waste of time and energy!!!!!

The Cure for Anxiety Matt 6:25-34

"For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life?
"And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith!"
"Do not worry then, saying,- 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?' For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.